Just curious of what others think, I’m very on the fence with this issue. Do you think it’s a good idea or bad idea?
It’s really hard to believe lately that it’s been 4 years since my mother’s sudden death. I’ve really feeling guilty, dejected, and very alone lately. I am feeling so sad lately that I really just want to disappear somedays. Eve worse I feel like walking out the door and never returning. However, I should feel happier than I actually feel lately. I’ve got two degrees under my belt, I’ve went to my dream college and graduated a year-and-a half early. I need to find work, and yet I’m unsure of what to do or what to go for. Even worse, I am afraid that no one’s going to hire me because I lack experience due to focusing on school and helping a sick parent for years.
I feel so afraid, scared, and so alone. I’m getting to the point that my own relatives don’t even know me anymore and we’re together very frequently. I’m also at the point where I don’t even socialize with my relatives when we’re out at a lunch or dinner, I don’t really say anything and I have nothing to say.
I don’t know what’s happening to me anymore, I just feel like I’m falling into a abyss and the one person who truly understood is dead and has been dead for 4 years. I have so many relatives and yet, I feel so alone and I feel I am nothing and I have nothing.
I, like a damned fool that I was, went down to Wildwood with my grandma and aunt. My grandma and I work well together and often have coexist great. However, my aunt, who often sounds very accusatory to me, treats like I’m five years old.
We had an argument about driving, I do drive (around the neighborhood) but not all over the city. I am still a new driver. Then, things got bad, and I just left the condo we were staying in. I needed a break. I have TONS of stuff on my mind (my family is pretty much falling apart, my health issue had come up that has me really freaked out, trying to drive more, getting into grad school, etc) including losing my mother 4 years ago. Then, I broke down because I feel everything is breaking down. Everything is going bad and I can’t stop it. So, my aunt is still in my face and she still treats me like shit. She claims she cares, but her delivery of talks often end badly.
“We’ve agreed to two more series but I’m probably going to get into trouble for saying that,” said Cumberbatch at the South Bank Show Awards this afternoon.
“All I know at the moment is I’m doing these three and another three.”
No one is going to care but, I’m finally back on Tumblr. Been away due to helping someone move and house renovations.
Oh God, I have such horrible writer’s block for Red String of Fate.
I just want to write.
I was REALLY wondering what happened to that fic…, now I understand. Just try to relax maybe? I play music while I write, that usually motivates me depending on the beat/rhythm
Oh shit - Nev from Catfish wants to investigate the Manti Te’o story.
Manti better fess up to anything like nowish. For real.
I’ve just posted the first four chapter’s of my 00Q fic titled “Dalliance,” and I would love for you to check it out, and let me know what you think. :)
I love it, it’s great so far. Poor Q though, thinking that Bond doesn’t like him. I think he does though.
To all my dedicated readers: THANK YOUUUUU!!!
You’re welcome, your story is so good. It’s so good to see Bond interested in Q, since it seems to be the other way around in some other fics. I’m so addicted, I refresh many times a day to see if a new chapter is up.