“I’m afraid I’ll never finish college. I’m afraid I’ll finish college with student loans I can never pay back. I’m afraid I’ll get a degree and won’t be able to find a job in that field. I’m afraid I’ll get a degree, get the job I dreamed of, and hate it.”—A Mental Illness Happy Hour listener whose list of fears matches mine four for four. (via undeadlife)
This sums up my life at 26. Jesus Christ…I hope it gets better .
I, apparently, have my first cavity in 25 years. It hurts, I made a appointment with a dentist nearby. I’ve been waiting for my dental insurance to approve and clear (I have health insurance, but the is particular plan did not have dental), but my family says to not wait too long. I have learned that cavities left too long can kill you.
I got a Groupon for my dentist, so I’m covered for a check up, x-rays, and cleanings. I got $300+ of work for only $99. Hopefully, I’ll be okay. I was doing the paperwork for the additional plan for dental, vision, and hearing before this happened. FML
Reading up on the GRE and panicking because: A. I’m a dance major so none of the things I’ve learned really help me for a test like this. B. Half of me wants to go to grad school and get on with a real job but half of me wants to go audition and dance while I still really can. C. I have 0 idea where I want to go to grad school.. better yet at this rate undergrad has put me in so much debt I probably can’t afford to go to grad school. D. I HAVE NO IDEA WHAT TO DO WITH MY LIFE.
After two years (I just figured out what I wanted to do for the first time since graduating with a Bachelors) I’m going to try into Temple University’s School of Media and Communications. I am the latest bloomer ever, but I’m ready to move on and get out of my funk.
Granted, I don’t have much work experience but I’m ready to go full OUT!
I have a few local universities/colleges in mind, but I’ve heard GREAT GREAT things about Temple’s Universities School of Media and Communications. God, this is terrifying and scary, and nervous. OMG, I’m really going to go through with this and can’t back out.
How to deal with a negative/bossy/preachy family member/bully?
I’m asking because, it’s the same aunt that keeps telling me how to live my own life and how I need to keep looking after my aging grandparent. I live with my grandparent and I take care of her everyday. This relative belittles me and treats me like I’m 5 years old and like I’m a idiot. This aunt gets me angry and furious to the point that I lose control (two times recently) where I was told that I needed to step back before I did anything dangerous, foolish, or life-altering. It did step back, but I needed a few minutes.
I stood up to her and told her that I felt she has been a bully to me and I don’t have to take it anymore. I felt better about voicing my side of things. However, I am upset that I lost control like that, but this person makes me so angry that I can’t think straight.
It’s really hard to believe lately that it’s been 4 years since my mother’s sudden death. I’ve really feeling guilty, dejected, and very alone lately. I am feeling so sad lately that I really just want to disappear somedays. Eve worse I feel like walking out the door and never returning. However, I should feel happier than I actually feel lately. I’ve got two degrees under my belt, I’ve went to my dream college and graduated a year-and-a half early. I need to find work, and yet I’m unsure of what to do or what to go for. Even worse, I am afraid that no one’s going to hire me because I lack experience due to focusing on school and helping a sick parent for years.
I feel so afraid, scared, and so alone. I’m getting to the point that my own relatives don’t even know me anymore and we’re together very frequently. I’m also at the point where I don’t even socialize with my relatives when we’re out at a lunch or dinner, I don’t really say anything and I have nothing to say.
I don’t know what’s happening to me anymore, I just feel like I’m falling into a abyss and the one person who truly understood is dead and has been dead for 4 years. I have so many relatives and yet, I feel so alone and I feel I am nothing and I have nothing.
“There are 7 billion people on this planet who I have not met, and 195 countries I have not visited. Yet I am stuck in this insignificant town, being pressured into making decisions about my future, when I barely even know who I am.”—Unknown (via buddhacoffee)
I, like a damned fool that I was, went down to Wildwood with my grandma and aunt. My grandma and I work well together and often have coexist great. However, my aunt, who often sounds very accusatory to me, treats like I’m five years old.
We had an argument about driving, I do drive (around the neighborhood) but not all over the city. I am still a new driver. Then, things got bad, and I just left the condo we were staying in. I needed a break. I have TONS of stuff on my mind (my family is pretty much falling apart, my health issue had come up that has me really freaked out, trying to drive more, getting into grad school, etc) including losing my mother 4 years ago. Then, I broke down because I feel everything is breaking down. Everything is going bad and I can’t stop it. So, my aunt is still in my face and she still treats me like shit. She claims she cares, but her delivery of talks often end badly.